I'm sure your heart is in the right place, but to imagine that Jesus is God is just imagining another reality that makes no sense in the context and life of Jesus. One hopes this is not another one of those false beliefs that get rusted on for ever. It is to be hoped that at some stage you might be able to see into this a bit more clearly.I agree with you, there. There is no way to God but through God. God is the gatekeeper to God.
"Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani? My God, my God, why have you forsaken me." Now I appreciate that this is a throw-back to Psalm 22:1, but very, very odd if Jesus was God and thus feeling rejected by Himself and calling out to Himself to relieve His own anguish, don't you think.
When Jesus was baptised, "And lo a voice from heaven, saying, This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased." Perhaps Jesus was a ventriloquist with a split personality? So here is Jesus on earth being baptised, so who then was speaking from heaven?
many more lines of Scripture that make it clear that He is not God.
Now a Trinity of sorts does exist, but not in a literal sense because God is beyond plurality, division, having an aspect of His reality subjected to death and decay. Jesus was empowered by the Holy Spirit and served the Will of His Father, in this there is a Trinity, but not in a literal sense, rather in the active force of God assisting Jesus to be the perfect servant.