hey, you are sounding like a Catholic here... Some Catholics don't even get this ..
congrats
anyone who does not suffer cannot call himself a Christian. If you give up your possessions b/c Jesus said to (all the possessions you do not require for your basic needs, that is), people will look down their noses @ you b/c you are "poor"
If you go around spoutating about Jesus this and Jesus that, ditto...
They will look into your past (if they can) and say such things as
Who are YOU to preach, you did this and that... Never mind that you did (this/that) whne you were young (ie clueless), it will b held against you just b/c you are an outspoken Christian...
etc... etc...
but we Catholics offer
up our sufferings in expiation of said past sins.. to wash off the residual bad effects of such sins on our soul. We also offer up our sufferings for unrepentant sinners, that they will repent..
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