We ALL do things sometimes CR, that we are not happy with them, even the ones who think they don’t, don’t bash yourself for it. You did not commit the unpardonable sin, you know.
You do not have to apologize to me for feeling frustrated, it happens to me also. That’s why I copy and paste before answering. Sometimes I too throw my hands up in the air and want to go through the screen screaming. I am happy you are still here. Don’t give up. That’s what the enemy wants. He will use whatever means at his disposal to accomplish what he wants – for you not to express yourself the way you do and let others be blessed by your words. Even though some will not tell you, even the ones who are not kind to you, they get blessed also. Trust me, they think about what you say, that’s why they come with such vociferous negative comments. They don’t know it yet, they will. All we can do is ask the Lord to fix us (when we are wrong) and for them to see what the Lord has so graciously given us the privilege to see. (Hope I am making sense here.)
Now, mind you, IF I think you did something wrong, I’ll be the first one to be on your back, even if in a loving way. You know that right? And I expect the same from you. If you see I said something that is incorrect, I expect you to correct me, especially in a loving way. I might not agree but then we’ll go back and forth until we do.
What kind words to say to me that you have considered me a timely counter balance to it all. What a privilege that the Lord has chosen me to come your way and you to come mine. The Lord is soooooo good to us. Isn’t He?
Please, do not leave any board or forum unless YOU know in your heart that the Lord has told you so. Keep on preaching. Keep on cajoling. Let their feathers be shaken. It’s good to have someone like you that we have to stop and think, I mean really think, to understand what you are saying. It happens to me sometimes, and then I say, ‘oh, I got it.’ Don’t forget that if we were face-to-face we would have all the nuances of our expressions and many things would be understood without need for explanations, not so on paper. The one reading has to stop and think before responding. If they are searching the Lord will make them understand.
And why do you think you have been asked to re-participate? Hmm. Le’s see. Because we need our feathers shaken and for that we need special people who know how to shake our comforting feathers. One of the things being that you have OC’s vocabulary in you and most of them do not.
Worry not about what their responses will be. Make the threads and let the Lord bless those who He wants to be blessed by them. If one, just one, gets it, you have done your job. Now, that does not mean that they will come back and tell you that they get it. Ignore their negative responses and keep on writing what the Lord has placed in your heart. If you concentrate on their agreeing with you, you will not be able to give them the feathers shaking treatment.
Yes, there are people out there who are searching, such as myself, but many are afraid, because they are not sure, to answer and to say something, especially, if for example, they fall in one thread where you are being hammered for what you are explaining. Think about it. Someone just accepted the Lord, they do not have any ideas not even which Bible to read, and for some reason they come into this forum and the first thing they see is you being bashed. Would you dare respond to anything? I wouldn’t.
Don’t worry about their responses. Worry about what the Lord wants you to posit. If someone respond and you feel that “throwing arms up in the air” feeling, walk away for a moment, copy and paste response, write your response, then come back, and then respond in the forum.
Many Christians are afraid to be ridiculed and that’s why they do not go beyond saying, ‘good morning.’ One of the reasons being that they do not place their nose on the Bible to study it and to understand it. It takes prayer, time, effort, frustration, etc., especially to humble ourselves to what the Word is saying and not what we think the Word is saying.
Again, I also thank God for you, My Brother. What a privilege it has been to at least give a small sand pebble of help and He making it a front beach property in your heart. God bless you for your faithfulness as He is still strengthening me and you AND He will NEVER, EVER give up on those who keep on coming back to Him, like you do. Don’t ever let doubt come into your heart. Yes, you can stumble…me too, but we are to get up, shake the dust and pick up the baton where it fell off our hands. He protects the baton because it is His. We just pick it up and continue on until the race is over.